yes, it is true i have these fleeting thoughts. here is an example...

huh

So this is my last day before my crazy firefighter physical agility test. i've passed this little jobby once before, but haven't had the chance to train this time around because of a bum back. pisser.

10 min. 20 sec.

that's all I need... and my back to not go out on me.

i am nauseated. i keep having the dry heaves.
...if you see me walking around and my eyes look watery,
i must have just almost tossed my cookies...

...on wednesday morning 5.26.04 i will be participating in the
SFFD Candidate Physical Agility Test or 'CPAT' for short.
This will be the second time I have done this.
I passed with flying colors the first time at a time of about 7minutes, 20 seconds or so.
...but that was with training for about two months.

Passing is 10 minutes, 20 seconds...

This time, i threw out my back at work moving a small carton of milk (a quart?)
from one shelf to the other a few weeks ago, so no training for me....i started training lightly
and was supposed to get into my "rocky" phase for the last month!

...geez, talk about timing....
here are the event details. I'll be doing this on wednesday (and maybe on thursday morn as well for the fire reserves)
http://www.beafirefighter.ca/cpat.html

http://www.local1259iaff.org/cpat.htm

you can pretend you didn't read this and i will be okay with it. it might even help me mentally.





just 10 min 20 seconds...

**hack hack**


.....there i go again...

beautiful sunny day here in la la land. had a wonderful day just working on plants and drinking Raz - berry coolers. it feels nice to have fresh dirt in between your toes once in a while!

summers coming and the plums are getting ready in the back yard and all the birds are winging their crazy morning songs.

posting more pics soon...

i never thought it would happen. i never thought i could leave. it hurts as i write this. everyone here has been so great. it's too late now though. i didn't even think it was real when it happened.


my wife bought me the *shudder* SONY CLIÉ PEG-TH55

i didn't even deserve it. she just wanted me to.....move on 8( 8( 8(

as soon as she showed it to me the first thing i thought of was my newton.
my heart actually skipped a beat and i felt as if i had been caught cheating.

i feel like someone just broke up with me. like someone broke my heart.

i guess, i don't know, i'm sort of happier now, i'm just not sure.
but i just feel guilty and i need to speak to someone.

none of my friends understand. they just didn't get it.

my newt is all ready spoken for. sorry.



a new owner of a clie
a sad ex-newton owner.

so here is something that i came across today. you've all probably seen it but i thought what the hey....http://www.expression.philips.com.br/artes/venc2003/obrasflash/rmello/o_incomodo.swf

you mouse over this guys face and watch what he does.

also, today, someone just completely bugs me and now i want to go and get something with chambord in it this weekend. no scratch that. i want that today. yeah. chambord and anything. sounds good.